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|Wednesday, July 16th, 2014|
|First episode reviews this season, part two.
As luck would have it, I'm like, almost done with the season, in only two weeks. I know, I was surprised too.
This list may seem a little off, but the reason is because a few reviews were done after the day the shows were released - Francesca took nearly two weeks before the first episode was translated, for instance. So, don't mind it too much.
10/07Momo Kyun Sord
is the breast show of the season.
Well, fine, Barakamon is the greatest thing to come out this year and I'm never taking it back, and I'll admit there's no reason for people to like it if they don't care about breasts, funservice, or simplistic shonen plots. It's Momotaro Densetsu if Momotaro was a magical girl.
But hey, I care about those things. So I'm satisfied.
...I am NOT satisfied by the translation. "Only those may command me who are stronger than me." I'm sorry, it's literally right, but it's lacking in cohesion and coherence. Plus, the video was full of hiccups.
All in all, a watch for me, you all can ignore it.Love Stage!!
is about a not-gay otaku who dreams of being a mangaka who's part of a superstar family who will end up in love with a not-gay superstar who's been in love with him since they were children after a shoot.
It's pretty, it doesn't have girls doing guy voices too obviously, there's a funny thing about a monkey and a cat going on, and the otaku looks like a nice girl. It's certainly better-looking than the usual shoujo fare I've seen, even if the otaku has emotion ring-colored eyes. Also, at least the girls are pretty.
I'm not really interested in watching it further, but honestly, this might be a good fujoshi thing.Majimoji Rurumo
is not bad. Reminders of SoraOtoshi will always come to mind, but overall... it's fun in a way that one is not, and unfun in ways that one is also not. I might watch the whole thing, but as it is, it's too much on the level of Glasslip. At least it has bigger boobs.
I wish they'd finish the mangá here already.Terror in Resonance
is a show about teenagers doing 9/11 in Japan. A lot less earthquakes and nuclear destructions than I predicted, a lot more imagery of two towers falling into themselves.
I'm not going to pull punches to those of you who were affected by the real events. Don't watch it. It's not exactly funny either, it doesn't play any of this for comedy, it's serious and dark and you guys are going to hate it. Anyone who's been affected by a destroyed building, or terrorism, has the 'right' to complain about something so realistic and not-animé.
Yes, I know there's the whole 'unrealistic' attack at the start of the episode, the part where the kids are clearly supergeniuses, the part where the girl jumped off the fourth floor and landed unharmed. By 'not-animé', I mean most of the shows I've reviewed so far.
To those of you willing to watch this, godspeed.Persona 4 The Golden Animation
looks like it may deprive us all of the nose song. This is a terrible crime and I wll not stand for it. Or by it. Or anywhere next to it.
Less seriously, though, it's about as fun as the last series was, but I think they went too far to show the differences due to the actual fight Izanagi was in. Too many freaking monsters, jeez...
Still, a watch nonetheless,11/07
is brutal and raw, in a way that Tokyo Ghoul wasn't. People bleeding, people dying in gruesome ways, not much censorship... an unusual opening and ending is also a great strength. Unfortunately, despite the implied adults as protagonists on several points, we're once again focusing on teenage heroes.
I mean, not for nothing, but how long has it been since Cowboy Bebop, Samurai X, and VOTOMS again? Even Irresponsible Captain Tylor for a change.
Mah, whatever. Doesn't ruin it.Invaders of the Six-Mat Room?!
is a nice show. Some funservice, not many meta jokes, and a harem plot that doesn't depend on a guy so much as on the location itself. If the episodes stay as amusing as this one was, it'll be great, but a lack of opening and ending does make me concerned.
Ah well, I don't mind. Time for the invasion to begin!15/07Seirei Tsukai no Blade Dance
Man, how bad can you get? A guy who's the only male spirit user in the world, joining a school filled with girls, being disputed by all of them and getting to see them naked... what the hell! Something about this feels really bad and drives me away. It's almost as bad as Dragonar Academy when it comes to a premise, this is for sure.
I might watch it, but I'm not sure if I like it enough to stay. What the hell, Japan.
Okay, so I finally saw a non-sucky version of Himegoto
It's a stupid show either way, mind, I just was pissed off at the opening they had put being so horrible and the possible 'LOL WAT' subs. It's not worth 4 minutes of watching, they don't even bother showing the upskirt when they do, and it's just... UGH.
...and yet, it's still less shit than Aldnoah in my head. Look at the world we're in.16/07Francesca
is a dumb show that is dumb.
It wears dumb pants that make it dumb.
I have nothing against Hokkaido, but hell, if this is what Hokkaido is, then I don't really care about it.Nobunaga Concerto
has a terrible first half, when the protagonist literally doesn't even realize what's going on and acts like a dumbass throughout, but it's stronger on its second half, once he decides that living out the role is better than messing up with history by getting himself killed.
He still acts like a dumbass, though, and the artstyle takes some getting used to. But it could be worse... MUCH worse.
This week's ranking:1: Barakamon
3: Akame ga Kill!
4: Momo Kyun Sord
5: Invaders of the Six-Mat!?
6: DRAMAtical Murder
7: Tokyo ESP
8: Bonne Vie
11: Persona 4 The Golden Animation
12: Sailor Moon Crystal
13: Bakumatsu Rock
15: Nobunaga Concerto
16: Terror in Resonance
18: Majimoji Rurumo
21: Tokyo Ghoul
22: Love Stage!!
24: Rail Wars
25: Blade Dance
27: FrancescaBottom Last: Aldnoah
I'm almost done with the ANN selection at this point. I'm going to give a better review of my tastes at the end of the month. Current Mood: Blah.
|Monday, July 7th, 2014|
|First episode reviews this season.
I decided to do this thing because I've been shitposting at TFF and well, why not shitpost it here, right? Besides, someone might laugh or something.
So! Inspired somewhat by one of my internet bosses, I decided to spend this season watching the first episode of every new show that would come out. The rules were that I would not watch sequels to anything and that I would write whatever came to mind. I would also rank them in viewing order based on how I felt about them, to guide non-readers into action.
So! Here's the situation as of now.
Survival Game Club.
I'm reminded of Ika Musume. It's got the same three-act structure, it's got the same level of nonsense [there's going to be blood despite the guns being completely harmless because IMAGINATION], it's got a main character who is quite aggressively normal relative to the other, insane ones... it does tend more to the fanservice, but it's not really a bad show. It does start out promoting feminism by having one of the main characters' first action be 'stop a train pervert', which is good in my opinion.
I'm not sure I would recommend this one, but I'm going to watch it until I'm bored or something.
Bakumatsu Rock is joseibait, I think. The artstyle is quite stylized, the men are so beautiful that a few of them look like women, and there's more than enough fanservice to make it seductive. The lead guy shoots lasers out of his nipple area, for crying out loud.
I can't exactly hate it, though. I mean, really: most of the rock bands I know and love are male-only. They're often loud and odd and they tend to have issues fueled by all their drug abuse. At least two of my favorite bands had lead singers who were ambiguous to worse. And besides, I then have to take into account Gackt, visual kei, and all that bizarre stuff.
Mostly I watch for the sake of seeing if they have any tunes on par with Fire Bomber's production. If I come out of this without one of the songs in my head, I'm going to be very disappoint.
Shirogane no Ishi Argevollen.
Okay, so apparently someone realized the RaiOh from SRW needed an animé. They couldn't get the rights to the RaiOh, which is why we have this. Argevollen is a military war animé where so far all the mecha involved are slow and clumsy and terrible at war, and then the lead mecha is introduced. It's fast, agile, and works on a direct mental connection to the pilot without lag. It has a flying kick.
I don't think we'll get more of the RaiOh's unique abilities - after all, this is completely unrelated other than the fact that we have a giant robot kicking enemies in the face - but it doesn't matter as long as they can make Argevollen have interesting abilities. I do wonder how they'll have other robots on par with it and hahahaha like they would make the rest of the troopers any strong, since it'd make our lead mecha lamer than 'SUPER COOL AWESOME'.
So far, the best of the lot.
Glasslip is slice of life indeed. About chicken adoption.
I think there's some kind of plot involved, but... really. I just watched ten minutes of dealing with adopting chickens. It wasn't even trying to be funny.
Time to watch Rail Wars!
It's not exactly good. I already know the rumors of how the author has it hard for nationalized railroads and how the badguys' plan is privatizing it. It also doesn't make the action scenes very exciting.
Really, the only thing worth watching is Haruka's fanservice, and that's not really a good thing. I'll watch it to see if it gets better, but...
Tokyo Ghoul's gonna require a startup point.
I hate Saya no Uta. And all of Urobuchi's works, but especially Saya no Uta. I don't like the idea of the plot as presented, I don't like the fanbase, I don't like it period. When I saw the plot to this show, I didn't really want to like it due to the fact that it reminded me of Saya no Uta, but because I'm bored and have nothing better to do, I decided to watch the first episode.
It's actually really strong. It's scary as it needs to be, but it's not the type of scary that drives me off through reliance on horribly drawn monsters and art. I know it's censored, but it works to its benefit in my opinion. And the protagonist, at least right now, is more interested in humanity than in the monsters. [This is a GOOD THING, as contrasted with Twilight's "HUMANITY SUCKS" portrayal.] I didn't remember the plot of the preview when I started watching, so I was surprised enough by it as well.
I don't think I'll necessarily keep on watching it, but it is one of the more interesting shows so far.
Sailor Moon Crystal is not a bad show. Which I think had been the internet consensus already, but I'm confirming it.
Not to say there aren't bad points in my opinion: I don't particularly like the fact that everyone has noticeable lips, Mamoru/Darien being a full head bigger than Usagi looks really weird and makes him look, like, crazy old [because the artstyle makes him look even taller than he was, plus the framing being much closer-in than it used to be], and I'm still completely skeptical that they're going to adapt the best storyline, PSSM Another Story.
But I like that it's not too dull and there's still comedy at Usagi's expense, that the pacing doesn't feel very bad, and the animation and plot seem to make more sense now. [Also, Tuxedo Yarou is only attractive to Usagi if she can't see his face, hyhyhy.]
Locodol is not a bad show, in my opinion. Of course, you have to be willing to care about the girls and not be grossed out at their lack of dress and possible sexualization and what-not... but honestly, compared to what I'm aware of from Idolmaster, it's not as bad. Funniest line of the season so far.
I'm guessing it'll draw all the girl/girl fans, overall. It's certainly not aggressive and somewhat bland, but it's not a bad show. I'm probably watching more.
Aldnoah Zero: DISREGARD MY DESCRIPTION I SUCK CHICKENS
My face throughout the episode was the same as the protagonist's. There's a Lacus-style character. The plot is set in 2014. The Martians are humans. They claim their mecha are gods. I have very little interest in watching this further. Hell, I'm gonna be surprised if this won't have the character who died today not show up alive later on.
The internet likes this show and hates Buddy Complex. Eff.
Barakamon wins the season. Shut up.
Okay, don't shut up, let me explain. Barakamon is what'd happen if Sayonara Zetsubou-Sensei was less about ridiculously punny names and analyzing random clichés with excessive usage of the ridiculously punny names, and more about the exploration of humanity. At the very least, it doesn't need Kafka's over-exaggerated optimism brought forth through brainwashing/self-loathing/insanity to contrast with the lead's natural pessimism. Naru's optimism is fun and funny in a way that feels more relatable and less monstrous.
Also, I think I actually care about the animation this time. It was great, winner of the season, shut up.
Akame ga Kill! was fun. I'm probably a sucker for not-Earths where you can be modern yet still have a degree of alien. [See also: Elemental Gelade.] It's funny in small doses, the terrorists wield ridiculous weapons, and the patriarchy is corrupt from top to bottom.
I don't read this so, you know, I'm not going to know the plot. So be it. It's at least a nice show and I'm not unhappy at all.
Gundam-san reminds me of Nichijou, always a plus, but it has Char shaking his naked butt for comedy's sake and Sayla hits Amuro in the nuts with a mace for the same reason. It's not a bad show, really, just extremely Japanese.
DRAMAtical Murder is filled of pretty boys with beautiful hair and pale skin, unappealing women, and animals who turn into people. It has the internet all over the place, the protagonist is literally on drugs, and some degree of .hack or Sord Art Online.
It also has an eight-armed woman who talks like a man.
It's a fujoshi show. If you don't watch those, don't bother. I'm sticking to it though. Current Mood: Blah.
Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun would be a lot more fun if it weren't for two things.
One, I don't like the main couple's designs. Nozaki looks like he should be in college, not high school. He also looks like a lamer Kenta Usui. The girl doesn't appeal to me as far as looks go, either.
Two, it's much better when it's funny than when it's not. Like, the scenes with the girl's inner self rolling on the ground or panicking, or Nozaki proudly declaring he's never loved anyone before? Worth watching. The boring, dull scenes where they're normally bonding and developing a relationship? Not worth it.
It's not a bad show, I'll give it that much, and I guess it's funny enough I want to see more comedy, but it's with an awareness that every episode will be less funny than it should.
Invaders of the Six-Mat Room can't start any sooner.
Ao Haru Ride is pure shojo in a can. I like the premise as stated and I like the way it was executed this episode, but it comes with a very shojo art style [I can't stand the looks of the protagonist] and an annoying sense of 'get on with it already' that I don't like.
I want to watch more, but I don't like all that I've seen, basically.
Hanayamata is absolutely nothing like my early description. It's about yosakoi.
I think this is this year's Keion, to be honest. It's about a five-girl group of dancers, led by an American blonde. I don't really know where the magic is. Also everyone has pointy eyes like losangos and it's really weird.
It has nice music and pretty girls, no breasts, and I'm hoping it won't actually turn into a terrible show, but... murf. I didn't like Keion and I don't quite want to like this one either.
This week's ranking:
3: Akame ga Kill!
4: DRAMAtical Murder
7: Sailor Moon Crystal
8: Bakumatsu Rock!
12: Tokyo Ghoul
15: Rail Wars
Bottom Last: Aldnoah
|Sunday, July 6th, 2014|
It must be nice to have a 'hometown'. A 'traditional culture'. A 'family history'.
I'm not wholly sad about that last one. It means I'll create it for the future. But I'll admit that the others aren't very good things either.
I mean... I'm technically as European as I am native. It's true I was born in Brasil, but if I want to go on detail... well, my great-grandparents were already married and had children in Europe when the families migrated to Brasil, and their children stayed among the other immigrants when they married, leading to my parents eventually marrying. You'll notice there's no signs of husbands/wives/children from Brasil, African nations, or others. As far as I know, my genotype is 100% European.
But I'm from Brasil. Born here, raised here, technically aware of the culture and all... but more and more, I feel distant from it as well. I don't have a standard hometown; I moved away from the city I was born in when I was too young to remember, and although I did adjust to living here, the city grew and changed in such ways that I don't have the implied connection to a hometown - that I'm willing to live here if I have nowhere to go. I can't claim the same of anywhere - there's no 'place' I feel truly comfortable with, just yet. Is it Curitiba? Anápolis? Scotland? Canada? Am I ever going to have such a place, even?
I don't know. I wish I did. Current Mood: Hn.
|Wednesday, December 25th, 2013|
|"haha yay it's christmas" "no i am a secular chrisxstamas tree" "AAA!" "no" "AAAGH!"
So I did manage to get some internet access in this place. Managed to sneak in some internetting while I could.
Except there's no way I can use Skype for five minutes before I nearly burst the computer's systems, so I can't log on. Which is why I may have been seen but not talked to. 'm srry nd ll.
Still, that's why email exists! I'm trying to send messages to people however I can, though it seems I only get one day a week to do that. But today's a bit more special about that... but anyway, Merry Christmas!
...for some people, I can't send you gifts this Christmas. But I have something very good in mind. Be plepared. Current Mood: THIS IS COOOOOOOOLD
|Wednesday, October 30th, 2013|
|Jasmine Appreciation Day.
Today's October 30th, and you know what that means.
Today I have something special for everyone. It's been a bit of an emergency, and I certainly wish I had more time for it... but well, no better way to show my appreciation than by something I did myself. And this time, I tried to do something special...( Click here to see more...Collapse ) Current Mood: Capable.
|Tuesday, September 10th, 2013|
*Orion* and me are kinda like brothers and kinda like mirrors of each other. We both have similar interests with regards to fictional characters, and yet when it comes to it, we seem to not pick the same, hahaha.
Because of this, just like he worked on his own Tops recently, so will I. And hopefully it'll make sense...Tier 1 - TOILI
The girls on this tier are the ones that I think about the most, throughout the last few years. It's easier for me to tell, at least, because these are the ones who have stayed as a continuous like of some sort, since I met them, as opposed to the ones who I oscillate more often towards.
2-Pirika (SHAMAN KING!!!)
3-Ellen (Harvest Moon)
6-Serene (Riviera: The Promised Land)
6-Ika-chan (Shinryaku! Ika Musume)
9-Katsuragi (Senran Kagura)
10-Alexa (Pokémon)Tier 2 - Childhood Feelings
For this tier, what matters is that I was interested in these girls when I was young, for the most part, but exposition to them has been significantly low since. It's part of my nature, really...
-Isabel (Monica's Gang)
-Marina (Monica's Gang)
-Chibi-Usa (Sailor Moon)
-Haruka (Sailor Moon)
-Tomoyo (Sakura Card Captor)
-Kahime (Mon Colle Knights)
-Serene (Riviera: The Promised Land)
-Rimururu (Samurai Shodown)
-Yuri (King of Fighters)
-Kaolla (Love Hina)
-Anna (Mr. Driller)
-Onpu (Ojamajo Doremi)
-Misao (Samurai X)
-Kaoru (Samurai X)
-Dagger (Final Fantasy IX)
-Purple Girl (Fairly OddParents: Abra-Catastrophe)Tier 3 - Beautiful People
I won't deny there isn't a focus on the body in this group that has affected my feelings significantly. But what can I say? I'm only human. And... in some cases, I can't help but feel it...
-Helene (Athena: Full Throttle)
-Kaguya-hime (Endless Frontier)
-Neige (Endless Frontier)
-Anne (Endless Frontier)
-Tomo (The Qwaser of Stigmata)
-Mimi (Duel Masters)
-Alexis (Yu-Gi-Oh! GX)
-Anna (Yu-Gi-Oh! ZEXAL)
-Jita (The Qwaser of Stigmata)
-Lala (To Love-Ru)
-Ryouko (To Love-Ru)
-Momo (To Love-Ru)
-Lenna (Final Fantasy V)
-Yui (Corrector Yui)
-Haruna (Corrector Yui)
-Cammy (Street Fighter)
-Rainbow Mika (Street Fighter)
-Power Girl (DC)
-Black Cat (Marvel)
-Wonder Woman (DC)
-Fire (Justice League)
-Athena (Athena: Full Throttle)
-Tifa (Final Fantasy VII)
-Layer (Mega Man)
-Cinnamon (Mega Man)
-Blue Eyes (Pokémon)
-Asuka (Tekken 5)
-Numbers 83: Galaxy Queen (Yu-Gi-Oh! ZEXAL)
-Asuka (Senran Kagura)
-Homura (Senran Kagura)
-Yomi (Senran Kagura)
-Hikage (Senran Kagura)
-Marguerite (Super Robot Wars)
-Beatrix (Final Fantasy IX)
-Stellar (Gundam SEED Destiny)
-Black Widow (The Avengers)
-Niela (Pokémon) [OC]
-Synn (Shattered) [OC]Tier 4 - Modern Feelings
These came after I grew up, to a degree, and are focused on 'NEW!' and 'STRONG!' feelings. Of course, by now so many are already 'old'... but it's still relevant, mefeels.
-Aile (Mega Man)
-Killer Frost (Justice League)
-Hikaru (Beyblade Metal Fight)
-Elpeo Ple (Gundam ZZ)
-Haman (Gundam ZZ)
-Kyara (Gundam ZZ)
-Luna Child (Touhou)
-Dorinha (Monica's Gang)
-Annie (Little Lulu Mangá)
-Crow (Princess Waltz)
-Lun Lun (Princess Waltz)
-Anna (Yu-Gi-Oh! ZEXAL)
-Precia (Super Robot Wars)
-Katina (Super Robot Wars)
-Latooni (Super Robot Wars)
-Ilia (Final Fantasy IX)
-Rinoa (Final Fantasy VIII)
-Selphie (Final Fantasy VIII)
-Carmina (Pokémon) [OC]
-Kim Pine (Scott Pilgrim)
-Ramona (Scott Pilgrim)
-Haruna (Super 11)
-Tiel (Gundam Wing)
-Audino (Pokémon)Tier 5 - Another's Love
...sometimes, the 'acceptance' part of loving someone means you are happier because of another person being involved.
-Jasmine (Pokémon) + Kenta (Pokémon)
-Serene (Pokémon) + Ein (Pokémon)
-Helene (Athena: Full Throttle) + Ryoutarou (Kamen Rider Den-O)
-Kotoha (Shinkenger) + Chiaki (Shinkenger)
-Ikaros (Sora no Otoshimono) + Tomoki (Sora no Otoshimono)
-Hiyori (Sora no Otoshimono) + Tomoki (Sora no Otoshimono)
-Elpeo Ple (Gundam ZZ) + Judau (Gundam ZZ)
-Palla (Gundam X) + Garrod (Gundam X)
-Asuka (Senran Kagura) + Katsuragi (Senran Kagura)
-Lala (To Love-Ru) + Rito (To Love-Ru)
-Momo (To Love-Ru) + Rito (To Love-Ru)
-Dagger (Final Fantasy IX) + Zidane (Final Fantasy IX)
-Ilia (Final Fantasy IX) + Vivi (Final Fantasy IX)
-Rinoa (Final Fantasy VIII) + Squall (Final Fantasy VIII)
-Angelica (Super Robot Wars) + Mist (Super Robot Wars)
-Sheldia (Super Robot Wars) + Mist (Super Robot Wars)
-Margaret (One Piece) + Ruffy (One Piece)
-Jita (The Qwaser of Stigmata) + Tomo (The Qwaser of Stigmata)
-Lun Lun (Princess Waltz) + Arata (Princess Waltz)
-Liesel (Princess Waltz) + Arata (Princess Waltz)Tier 6 - The Unpleasantness
For these... either I hate the rest of the setting, and only like the character, or I've suffered in some ways because of it.
-Annie (Little Lulu Mangá)
-Haruka (Senran Kagura)
-Dreamer-001 (Shattered) [OC]
I know, several are repeated. It happens. I tried to focus the most, at least, and figure out which would fit best... but I'm sure there are some who I can't tell. But certainly someone else can.
|Wednesday, October 31st, 2012|
Finally, it's over. Thirty-one entries, posted day after day, never missing one. Even when I felt like I couldn't do it, I still tried, doing my best to post. Because I knew one person was reading this, and because I wanted to expiate my own sins and evils. I left too much unsaid, in the last few years... and some things just weren't what I wanted to talk about, before.
I've talked all about Jasmine in the last month. I don't think I left anything unsaid, more or less. I brought up every subject I could think of.
...well, there is
one...( My closing statement is a wish for the future.Collapse )
To everyone who has read this... thank you very much. I owe you all a lot. I assume you have read all these because you care... and because you wanted to know more. All I ask of you is respect: say nothing wrong of these posts, nothing about my own sanity, or any such bad things. That's all I ask. Current Mood: Awakened dream.
|Tuesday, October 30th, 2012|
|Jasmine Appreciation Day - Jasmine and me.
Not enough time to post... so I'll be brief. This post will not be the last one, but it may be the only one that must be read, above all. I'm going to write here my feelings... my final feelings.
Throughout my life, Jasmine has been an ideal; the type of person I wanted to love. It wasn't always innocent and pure... sometimes, it was twisted, and I made mistakes. I don't want to make those mistakes anymore, but their happening is not under my control. Our actions are, sometimes, so out of our control...
I've learned what a 'waifu' is supposed to be, recently: a fictional character that you're devoted to, but that you're not supposed to be sexually attracted to. Not because it's wrong, since sex isn't wrong, but because you shouldn't debase her for your own selfish needs. Rather, you should like her for reasons other than being a sexual creature.
I understand the concept. Technically, this is what I did with Jasmine... but it's also a wrong method. I wanted to admire her without sexualizing her. I repressed all my urges, all my interests... and compensated by unleashing my excessive desires on others. It's one thing to have a fetish that isn't politically correct, like shotacon or excessive sizes... another is to desire the things that you've suffered, inflicted upon others. And my attempt to deal with it was to be extreme in all measures, for good or ill.
None of these characters deserve any of that. Even if I don't think Jasmine should be sexualized to the level she has been by others, I'm not going to repress my own feelings. I'm going to try and embrace them better, instead... and instead of forcing others to suffer as they have, I'm going to try and be more reasonable.
I suffered a lot because of my feelings. I cursed others for treating them as lesser, and I tried to prove to myself that they were good because they were true. That this was not possible, as it was then, was a fault of mine; I wasn't just innocent, but also foolish. Extremely so...
I've never been the best at handling others. The bullying I went through didn't make it impossible for me to trust others, but I've learned that people often tease you by acting like they like something they do not, or dislike something you like, just to be 'cool'. Something that always annoyed me about some of them was how girls were always trying to show interest in me, even though it was only to embarrass me. I don't like having fallen for that trick so often, either...
I learned to be modest, throughout my life. I think Jasmine was a part of it just as much as my own nature - she isn't someone who would be interested in a show-off and vain person, but rather, those who do things because of their moral value - who do the right thing, simply because it's right. On occasion, I've helped people out not because I wanted a reward, but simply because I wanted to help out.
I don't know how good that is, but... it's what has affected me. I want to be a good person. I want to be better than I was, before then - selfish and vain and rude and arrogant. I want to be the kind of person that she could love, in short.
She may not exist, but my feelings do. If she can love me, then the person I care for would be able to. That's what I feel, what motivates me... and what makes me believe.
This is a month of love. Love is what makes us want to be together with others, care for others, and accept others. Even if we hesitate and want to be alone, or feel like we must abandon others for the sake of our 'selves'... what matters most, what should matter most, is to care about others. By caring, we grow stronger, and we learn to work together for a future.
This is what I believe. This is what Jasmine helped me believe. She, and the other Tops... but she, in particular. The one girl who has been in my heart for the last ten years...
Today is a special day, but also a tragic one. The great storm in the Atlantic coast, the wars, the bad things happening all over the planet... for those who can, I wish them happiness and hope. For those who can't... do your best to survive, for the sake of the shining future ahead of us.
Thank you all. Current Mood: Awakened dream.
|Monday, October 29th, 2012|
|Sunday, October 28th, 2012|
|Jasmine and Winona.
So, there was still a surprise waiting here. I suppose it's fitting that something like that would happen.
Today, I'm going to talk about an aspect from my head canon that I did not go on detail before, but that does deserve an explanation. Of course, this has to do with relationships... and how I think these ultimately end up as...( A great friend is something wonderful to have.Collapse )
Tomorrow is not the most important day. But something important still must be said... Current Mood: Awakened dream.
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|Jasmine and her Expies.
*Orion*, like me, really likes using Jasmine in his stories, one way or another. In this case, as we're talking about his own work, he's using expies of her - and in one particular case, well... drama ensued. Painful, painful drama...
The following are spoilers to actual monetary work. I am allowed to share these, but even then... please support his own work, when you find them.( "For my new family... who have helped me rediscover hope when all seemed lost. For my father... and everyone... you too, Richard."Collapse ) Current Mood: Awakened dream.
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